Self-Sabotage

I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 170 pounds. Well I did it. I managed to undo week and weeks worth of worth in a matter of days. Its that special time of month and I am sick and I gave into every urge. My husband and I polished off a bag of chips two days in a row. I have had chocolate covered pretzels almost every day. I find myself sneaking carbs and craving salt. I skipped my weigh in last week and now I see I will have hell  to pay come this Tuesday. I was not always hungry. I have been emotionally eating because I feel like crap. And I have let my husband become an enabler. I have been exercising but that does not overcome the fact I have been eating at least twice as much as I should. Ad I can feel it. And see it. I have to get a hold of myself. And writing it down it where it starts.