Binge

So I just finished eating way more than I was supposed to. Not good. And now my stomach is in knots and I don't feel any better now than I did before. I think I may be trying to sabotage myself. I was doing so well. I am two weeks into having real food again and I am trying to mess myself up. Yes, I had fruit and egg beaters. But I was not really hungry. I was eating to be eating which is not good. And with thanksgiving a few days away I am worried that this is a bad omen for me coping on turkey day. I need to refocus myself and get back on track. I have spent a lot of time and money and effort to get where I am now and I do not want to go back.